December 19 – Healing. What healed you this year? Was it sudden, or a drip-by-drip evolution? How would you like to be healed in 2011? (Author: Leonie Allan)
I'm still waiting for the healing. So far, it's been a year of ripping me down to my core by everyone I dare to care about, and many whom I don't. I'm tired. I'm having thoughts of suicide again, but I recognize that for what it is and deny it serious access or consideration.
Being healed? Ha. I would be happy if people who just live up to what they promise. Don't lie to me, don't steal from me, and realize that I am allowed to have opinions, feelings, and imperfections. Don't build a box of perfection for me to live in. Don't define me by your expectations. Nevermind the physical battles. I just want to be allowed the space to breathe and live. Is that too much to ask?